nobody nobody but me.._

everyone's aslp now. i know i shld be sleeping too but i'm feeling quite awake and i don't like the feeling of rolling on bed, trying so hard to fall aslp yet i can't. so this is the quietest time, most peaceful time and..the loneliest time. can't help but to feel a lil emo. ):

"where is everyone?! why am i alone here?"

then i'll feel so lonely, neglected, unwanted, sad and emo.

and i'll start to reflect on myself...

"maybe there's something wrong about me."

maybe... maybe...

nah it's just 2010 is ending too soon, i can't accept it. 2011, a brand new year, represents changes. i hate changes. i love to stick with the arrangements i'm happy with or getting used to. now i have to adapt to new things again. another reason to emo.

recently, addicted to Hebe's songs!


寂寞寂寞就好

i think this song is awesomely suitable for the pple who just broke up. if only there's this song when i broke up the previous time, tsktsktsk.......loop non-stop! even better than yoga's 说谎 la! i repeated tt song for weeks i think. now, 寂寞寂寞就好 is tokgong(number one) i tell you! love the lyrics TTM. 死不了就还好~ and, another reason to emo. the song is too sad alr okay. i can feel it.


another Hebe's song. Love!


initially, i didn't like both songs. but after listening for a few times, i get the impact. totally hooked onto them now. they're actually meaningful songs. and Hebe is so pretty! the wind blow up her hair in the MV, super chio. typical MV style but she's still pretty! and Hebe didn't sound like herself in Love!. sounds like 王菲?


anw, long time no photo of yuan'r and i. in case anyone suspected we broke up (tt's why i'm addicted to 寂寞寂寞就好 and being so emo), choyyyy okay! no we didn't. this was X'mas! :D

anw, last day of 2010! all the best to everyone in the new yr!!!!!!!!! WELCOME, 2011!! HAVE AN AWESOME COUNTDOWN!!!!! (:

怎麼這世界 每個人都愛別人 不愛自己

Eh? Why nthg new??_

it's kind of stupid but everytime i visit my OWN blog, i hope to see something new. like hello i nv even blog how to have anything new right. think i'm too used to having group blogs, hoping to see new posts by my loved ones everytime i visit. and when i'm the only one who blogs, i feel tt it's becoming my own blog. feels weird and there, i created my own blog.

anyhow, haven't been blogging since the start of dec simply because i'm too lazy. and probably i'll start blogging again when nobody visits my blog. uh uh personal diary! pple who're reading this now are trying to invade my personal life!! tsktsk...

last few days of 2010 and it's time to feel old again. it's always the period when i'm having hols(TMD ONLY 3 WEEKS THIS TIME LA!), having nthg to do(except impt things like eating, sleeping, shopping, having fun, watching shows, rolling ard at home, pestering my friends, irritating bui, bugging my parents, acting like a siao kia...), i'll start to think back and reflect, WHAT HAVE I ACHIEVED THIS YEAR?!

1. i...........survived two sems miraculously.
   
   
2. i went through sch attachments. (okay i nv achieve, i just completed.)
   
   
3. i got a loving boyfriend (i think is HIS achievement lor. he got such a wonderful girlfriend can! ;) ).
   
   
4. i, erm, achieved a tuition kid who loves me?
   
   
5. k la dont talk about achieving things, but things that happened this yr k. house renovation!! i survived the POW life! bathing with a pail of cold water, no running tap, no kitchen, no functional living room. )=
   
   
6. some family issues. actually i dont know what happened also. it's just no more now. hehe.
   
   
7. and errrrr, the blogshop photos? i can't believe there's no photoshopping involved and they just posted my photos everywhere la! damn hideous la. okay everyone shall just forget this........ *chants*
   
   
8. attended the most special wedding. currently the most special one. mine will be NUMBER ONE! ;D
   
   

okay la crap. i didn't achieve anything okay. always being as boring and stupid. so yr end is coming, time for some new yr resolutions......... okay i'll just look at last yr's one and see if i achieved any.

NEW YEAR RESOLUTIONS (2010)!
1) i will be kind and patient to my family! no shouting no screaming no quarreling.
*yea yea i'm always kind and patient to my family what. we're more loving this yr. i'm so lovable as usual. PASS!*

2) i will study. i promise to study at least 3hours per week. lol is it too little? at least at least! good progress anw. (Y)
*i think i didn't study at least 3 hours per week but my time was alll dedicated to schwork la! endless assignments and projs. dont even have extra time for myself, still study leh. cheyy. anyhow, PASS!*

3) i will not fail! i will not fail my parents, i will not fail my friends, i will not fail myself, i will not fail anyone! i realised the scariest moment is to know that you're alone. i will not let anyone feel alone! YOU STILL HAVE ME! (:
*i don't know about this. i guess everyone's so busy and i really didn't have the time for my friends. so... FAIL. ):*

4) pple have been saying i'm fierce for umpteen times alr. i will become gentler! DON'T LAUGH!
*WAH RAO PASS PASS PASS! super gentle me. PASS!*

5) i will try my very best to not let my loved ones worry for me again. sorry loves!
*i did try my best to not let my loved ones worry for me again BUT, my loved ones will nv stop worrying for me right? SUB-PASS!*

6) i will do more good deeds.
*i admit. i didn't. i'm a meanie. FAIL!*

7) i will love who i love more, including myself!
*yes i love everyone, more. LOVELOVE! PASS!*

8) i will be more sociable, in the right way.
*right way. i think i'm still not sociable, but at least i don't use online sites anymore! SUB-PASS!*

9) i will pack my room and house more often.
*._. okay la FAIL!*

10) okay okay this is it, I WILL NOT BE ADDICTED TO CLUBBING! ^^
*ai seh. totally absolutely PASS! for the whole yr, i went to club for 7 times only. final time is when my head got abused. ): *

so.... 6/10!!!! *blings* thanks all for your support! new yr resolution works okay!! i shall think of some new year resolutions for 2011!!! to be continued...

i had a lovely christmas. hope you guys did too! next up, COUNTDOWN TO 2011! have fun!! ;D

hi, i love to be unglam and 捉住青春的尾巴.. (;

Two songs i keep looping, non-stop_

Insomnia by Craig David

i'm suffering from insomnia recently..


Beautiful by Akon ft. Colby O'Donis, Kardinal Offishall

i know if i say i'm beautiful i'll get whacked. probably only 2 pple will agree.
no, only 1. i thought my mum would. )= FML.


i'm officially done with all assignments for the sem and i dont feel like studying at all. somebody save me! so feel like enjoying life now.

T-H-I-R-T-E-E-N M-O-R-E D-A-Y-S T-O F-R-E-E-D-O-M!!!!