dear blog.._

i'm suffocating. i don't dare to say that i want to do things which i like, i just don't want to do things which i dislike. for the whole of this yr, i guess almost everything's against my wishes. it's so sickening and i'm suffocating so much i'm going to explode, and i exploded.

i don't really want to go nie, i don't want to stay in a hostel, i don't like camps, i don't like new environment which forces me to meet whole new pple and to the extent of leaving home. why can't i stay at home? why must i have to stay in hostel? i don't like! i don't like to quarrel with my family, i hate to shout at them. but i don't know why i just can't control myself.

i think whatever they say is so ridiculous that i have to rebut. then after shouting, i feel like shit cos i've never tried to let them understand what i'm thinking as well. i don't know how to communicate. i know my brothers and parents are doing things for my good but it's like against my will?

there's nthg i'm enjoying now, i'm even leaving home man tmd. packing things over these few days, saddening. i will miss home! i don't wanna leave home. i rather listen to my mum's nagging.. i've never left home for more than a week, seriously.

this yr sucks. i'm always making my family worried for me. and i thought providing for myself, not taking allowance from them is very noble. then i realised, it's no big deal. anyone can do so, i'm still making my family worry over the smallest things. they're always protecting me and i'm still living in my princess world.

my brothers helped me coordinate with the hall pple and asked me to attend hall camp cos they're worried that i will have no friends and no one can help me when i'm in need in hostel. i don't like camp, so we keep arguing over this matter. why can't i appreciate things from my family when i can be so grateful to my friend when he/she says "good luck" or whatever. siao gin na.

i don't know what i can do. my hair is not drying under the strong fan at all.

i really want to say sorry and thank you but i don't have the courage to. i feel so terrible.

我真的不想长大..

wash your body, wash your hands too.._

MBSians_

alright since i have the time and the feel to blog now, i shall upload some pics of my ex-colleagues and i as promised. MBS stands for marina bay sands though. sigh everything is becoming EX alr. sounds so sad. in any case.......picture time!

okay here goes this day when we're going for lunch, wenna suddenly EHHH!!!

these two were wearing black and white combi!


these two were wearing full black!


and these two were wearing stripes!

the colleagues mock ki! it was so cool. eh i'm that stripey! :D

back to office, slackers.


VS

hardworking me! see, even candid i'm also making calls. tsktsktsk.


this guy's eric. he looks kind of emo but he's nice. me, wenna, eric, jiejie!


caught red-handed! those two.....tsktsktsk.


cat jie! she's nice lor she controls my pay man. must be nice to her ahaha.


icy! icy has a unique name, kennard. nv hear before right! icy sounds better.


whoa we're the under-bobos! ahem. veron(asst manager, we work under her), kate, me, malanie, wenna, jiejie, kasia, denise, eric.


henry pau pau! yy says he's getting fatter LOL.


cecelia~~~


big heads.


james, jia mu si.


xiao de! she's xiao hui and you can't believe her age.


who is this? oh xiao he. he's not very nice. he doesn't respect teacher(me)! stupid loanshark-style of calling. hohoho.


*stare*


yay 6 of us temp staffs. xiao niu, yy, ron, lao da and lao wang are not in the picture:(

me, jiejie, xiao he, icy, wenna, xiao hui.

then the next day, we went to lao da(brandon)'s wedding chalet.
their wedding cake. cool concept eh!

their fences(pokey sticks) caused me to perform a disgusting act with yy. bu shu fu.
in case yy is reading this: ahahha no la i would love to do that a thousand times more:D

the ah boy behind looks enthu!


me, yy, wenna, lao wang(and her $400++ hair HAHA).


the newly-wed couple! lao da(brandon, bu lan deng) and da sao(jessica).


a long awaited group photo before we went off.

looks like some family portrait with ah gong ah ma and one basket of children.

in any case, all the best to the couple! (:

yea tts about all for my MBSians. it's kind of sad to have to move on to the next stage. i just applied for the hostel. hopefully they'll reply soon so i can prepare myself, whether to wake up super early everyday or to change a bed.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MUMMY ON 25JULY!:D

2 more weeks before sch starts, SIGH!~

and suddenly, i miss sec sch life..

love till remove shoe_

july july!_

whoa it's been so long since i last updated. longest interval man. lazy la. i mean busy. anw, my last day of work was on friday. it was such a busy last day. call and call and call. very unlovely last day leh. in any case, took pictures but i haven't uploaded yet heh. soon, when my bro found his card reader ah. so i'm jobless now! yay finally i'm jobless.

i've worked at MBS for 5 full months(started on 17/2, ended on 17/7) alr and i've went to 3 locations. seeing MBS grow man lol. so many things happened. i've seen and experienced the real world. it's scary. pple outside are scary.

then again, if not for MBS, i won't know my wonderful colleagues. i know they won't read this so i shall type with freedom. my colleagues are the ones who kept me going no matter at which branch. i'll miss my colleagues and those times where we fought wars and bobo together! and those times we went for lunch. from clarke quay to redhill market to old airport road ai seh! but i still prefer icy driving us out for lunch with his 7-seater:D makes me wanna bring all of them to nie and we'll all continue being colleagues.

probably working at MBS makes me see a lot. like how an old man can plead someone for a job, how some pple can think the position is too low and argue with us, how luo suo pple can be, how unreasonable, how patient, how comical pple can be. lots of stress, unhappiness, fun, laughter, joy, bickerings, food, moneyyy~~

haha but i guess there's an end to everything, so let friday be an end and i shall move on to my teaching career. burps. last but not least, thank you MBS and colleagues! wait for the pictures man! i'll intro my colleagues in case one day i forget their names._.

and congrats to lao da for settling down so soon(:

so these few days i've been watching dvd. heart of greed 2, 家好月圆. it's like about family. so touching la! don't know waste how much tears. awww.. but it's really an awesome show. lots of exciting twists and heartwarming scenes. got to cherish my family members more! gotta watch later. i was like thinking of the show even when working. 扣人心弦 ah~ highly recommended!

good news, there's e-registration and e-orientation for NIE YAY! so that means i have more time to meet up with my beloved friends alr!! YAY AILIN YLM LAOXUE STEADY PIPI TOMATOES NIANG FRIENDS AND COLLEAGUES, here i come~~

sigh. i don't know if i should stay in hostel. after watching heart of greed2, i dont wanna stay lor! i wanna stick with my family like orh ni(yam paste). but very far lehh. zzzz.

oh something stupid. ytd night at 3am, i was on my bed flipping ard. suddenly i heard some noises and i looked outside my room door, i saw this banglah walking pass and looking inside my room! OMG i got a shocked and i assumed i was dreaming so i flipped back and wanted to go back to sleep. then someone knocked on my door, it's a chinese this time. he said, "excuse me, sorry your brother is drunk and he's in the living room." AIYO! so actually the two guys were sending my drunk bro home. luckily i don't have the habit of sleeping naked man! phew.

words and words and words. a picture before i go!

this pic proves that i still love myself! zi lian. i'll be back with lots of pictures doodoooo!! (:

my new daless!_

FATTY! huge tummy and fat cheeks.


AND MAO MAO! just so furry everywhere._.



happy family.. two new creatures to fight my bed space with me.

i'm only sleeping half of my bed now can. but, i rather do that than to not have fatty and mao mao! :D

welcome monsters! xD

ps. mao mao is from ai lin! AI LIN YOUR NAME APPEARED!! yay. ai lin forced me to carry mao mao ard tt day. and one auntie asked me where i got it from leh! ai seh!

say hello to pu-ree!_

pu-ree is the new member in my family!! let me show you all pu-ree!


so pretty right! why pu-ree? cos it's so white, PURE and innocent (just like me), so i name it pu-ree(: good name huh.

pu-ree's my new macbook from the suntec pc fair! went with ylm but didn't get the macbook cos bro i shouldn't. and when i reached home, he suddenly said it's a good buy best buy must buy! so he drove and we chionged down to get it. literally ran la. so exciting! and there, got pu-ree!

so slim!

yea i know macbook's a lil outdated alr but it's still very pretty lor!

just different from all the other laptops man! although it's a lil tough to use, i'm getting the hang of it, i hope. but i still cannot use the webcam tsk.


then i love pu-ree's photo booth la! forcing me to camwhore! gonna bring pu-ree out and camwhore with all my loves soon.


i'm going to go with my loves soon man! haaa.

anw, i got stationed back to the main office at work alr. pretty shocking news. i dont mind because it's the pple that matter, not the place(e2i will be better as it's less stressful). if only yy and lao wang can be transferred back as well. SIGH.

well, last two days of eighteen. man, ageing is freakin' fast. zzzz...

i was hoping to meet all my friends this week, but.. nvm telepathy. alright, goodnight all(:

sakura_

went for my manager's farewell dinner at orchard sakura last thurs. it's an international buffet yet this post is gonna be without food! just all our pretty faces ehh. orchard sakura's food variety is super limited la! so disappointing. in any case, picture-talk!

the manager(middle) who hired yy, han's and i. she's so ever caring and nice to us. nono she's not the one leaving(:


the manager(middle) who's leaving us. she's in-charge of us for the past two months. very kind to us as well. i miss her lor! like totally. zzzz.


pom cha cha.. (random)


we got her a card filled with heartfelt words and 3 roses!!:D


our mr pau pau!! woooot! cute hor? ahahhahaa! too bad he transferred back alr. it's always so fun to talk to him cos he won't know what i'm trying to say and vice versa. challenging yo!


and the four of us! 小蔡，老王，中陈，大吴。
our squashed faces. xD


woohoooo! me, her, her, her.


wah why i look so short ah? fake one fake one! they act tall.


e2i portrait. hmm... yea.


there's this grp photo with everyone inside but i don't have it! why i have so lil photos ah?! tsk. it's alright, got my face and cindy's(manager who's leaving) face can alr. they rest doesn't matter! AHAA.

i can't stop laughing at oolong tea and coconut pancake lol!

okay i'm taking leave tmr cos lao niang is feeling very unwell. after the coughing marathon, i've finally decided to forgo the money and take a rest. i feel so relieved. i called and called and coughed and coughed and called and coughed and coughed and called. i can take no more! still expect me to call?! go call them yourself la! pek cek. tsk.

i've quite a number of pictures to upload sia! which ones first? dilemma. whoa today is 8th june alr. pom cha cha, pom cha cha..

dohhh i miss ketchup sessions): okay i'm off to rest. take care everyone! i hope i didn't spread the coughing trend ard.